Two Years!

Well, my babygirl is about to turn TWO! TWO! I just can’t believe it. Her birthday comes with such a whirlwind of emotions. When you see your infant almost lose their life, when you live in a hospital room, when you’re forced as brand new parents to have “the” talk about what could happen when you pull a breathing tube, you become faced with the reality that your baby may not ever celebrate a birthday. And yet, here we are, two very hard years later, celebrating all of the strength, perseverance, and love Maddie girl has shown us all...

A Happy Maddie

Alert. Clear. Vocal. HAPPY. These are a few of the words I would use to describe Madison lately, and it’s been wonderful! What’s changed? Well not much, aside from starting a new CBD and weaning one of her seizure meds a few months ago. We’ve also finally figured out a good combo for keeping her constipation under control, and her teething spell has just about ended. Okay, so maybe a few things have changed! Regardless, she’s been a new child lately and John and I have been soaking in every minute. One of the worst things about epilepsy, is...

OBX 2019

Vacationing with a special needs child can really be hit or miss. Madison’s stability varies and unfortunately when you book a trip there’s no way to know if she’ll be having a good week or a bad one by the time that trip rolls around. We traveled to Florida in November and while it was relaxing to soak up the warm weather, Madison wound up having awful nights almost everyday. She barely slept, had seizures, and seemed uncomfortable a lot during the trip, which made things hard for John and I. We booked a beach house in OBX knowing...

The Truth About Mother’s Day

Mother’s Day is just around the corner. A day to celebrate the strength and love of all the moms and mom figures in our life. A day that is truly special for many. But what about for those that have lost their mother? Those estranged from their mothers? Those longing to be a mother? And those, like me, who’s journey into motherhood hasn’t been like what they had hoped or dreamed of. For us, this day can stir up a wide range of emotions and be extremely difficult. Last year was my first Mother’s Day with Madison, and it...

World Meningitis Day

Today is World Meningitis Day. A day to help spread awareness about a disease that has stolen so much from our family, so much from my little girl. Madison was born perfectly healthy, but everything changed just 11 days later. She didn’t wake to eat, her skin looked grey, her eyes became empty-as if her soul was sucked right out of her, she spit up her last meal, and began grunting when she breathed. Within moments we knew something was terribly wrong. We had no idea just how wrong. We had no idea our entire lives and every dream...

Equipped for Development!

Finally, after months of me bugging all of Madison’s therapists about the subject, we officially got the process started in getting her some very much needed adaptive equipment! Madison has very low tone, and still can’t completely hold her head up on her own. She can’t sit, let alone stand, yet being in these positions is crucial to her bone and muscle development. So what do we do? We get her equipment that will provide her body the support it needs to sit and stand correctly! Last month we had an appointment with a physiatrist, which is a doctor...

Medicinal Marijuana: Part 2

Let me just start by saying, epilepsy sucks. I don’t think I could ever describe how painful it is to see your child have seizures every single day. How stomach turning it is to pump them full of strong and serious medications day in and day out. Medications that haven’t even been able to fully control their epilepsy. Yet this is the fate that many epilepsy parents face. CBD oil has been known to be somewhat of a miracle cure for many epileptic patients. There are tons of variations and ways to administer it. Some find seizure freedom with...

Medicinal Marijuana: Part 1

It’s official, Madison is officially registered with the NJ Medicinal Marijuana Program! We got her card in the mail last night and could not be more excited to start this journey with her in the hopes that medicinal marijuana helps her find seizure freedom. Because marijuana is not legal in New Jersey there’s quite a process in becoming a part of the Medical Marijuana Program or MMP. For one, you must suffer from an approved debilitating condition. In NJ these include: Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis Anxiety Chronic pain related to musculoskeletal disorders Chronic pain of visceral origin Migraine Multiple sclerosis...

The Domino Effect

Epilepsy sucks. Diabetes Insipidus sucks. Hypopituitarism sucks. All of these conditions are difficult to mange on their own, but put them all together and the complexities can be overwhelming. With so many systems out of whack, a tiny change in one can greatly affect the others. Whenever something is “off” with Madison there’s never an easy answer as to why. We always have to look at the whole picture and it can make things quite challenging to say the least. So far, we’ve been pretty lucky in her care with most of her systems running smoothly and levels stable....

Let Her Eat Cake!

Madison ate CAKE! I repeat, CAKE! Today Madison surprised us all and rocked her first real attempt at eating table food! She has been so moody and temperamental lately from teething, I never know how her therapy sessions are going to go. This afternoon at speech she started off pretty cranky, but once she got a taste of that sweet Entenmann’s funfetti cake, her mood perked right up! Since Madison’s success with using the light aide in speech (read more on that here), we’ve attempted to move her lessons into the CVI room. This room is painted black and...